Married

Married with children
married without children
seeking someone single...

What sense does that make?
When one made the mistake
of a past they didn't want
of a past that was a fake.

Big cars, big houses
big bank accounts
married.

Long walks, long talks
long letters
married.

Photos tell it all
a past worth living
but run to the one
a future worth giving.
Married.

What does that really mean?
I'm yours, your mine
together we dine
bedtime at nine?
Married.

Free to do what
free to live what
where to go but...
we want this
we fight for this
we will kill someone because of it
Married.

Connected, reconnected
disrespected, fix it and forget it
show off a ring, pick a song to sing
argue, fuss, fight, release,
wash off, kiss goodbye
everyday try
Married.

Nicholl McGuire

Oh I Got A Feeling

I got a feeling
that he will see the light
will try to make things work
with all his might.

Got a feeling the past will die
cause he'll listen to my cry.

Got a feeling that he loves me
held up a ring for the world to see.

Got a feeling that he hates me
for the life I live now free.

Got a feeling that he'll come around
his words tend to have that sound.

Got a feeling
Got a feeling
took my heart and lured me
spun me around
let me hit the ground
now he's through with me.

Oh I got a feeling
he'll thank me one day
some time in May
for the light that came on
inside a stubborn hard head.

Oh I got a feeling, got a feeling
will see my kids and they'll run to me
they will cry "I see, I see it's mommy."

Got a feeling that God will do it
got a feeling that he'll wake up
got a feeling that he'll call
got a feeling that won't be all!

Got a feeling, got a feeling!


Nicholl McGuire

You Don't Need Me

You don't need me
just wanted me
didn't want what I was offering
just borrowing
had a plan
from the beginning.

Have some fun
then your done
on to the rest.

You looked at me one day
something fell upon your heart
you knew that this one was for keeps.

You didn't want to buy
just try
didn't want a commitment
too much work
didn't want to settle
had been there done that.

But then things changed,
maybe you needed me after all.
Maybe you wanted what you now can't have
you learned a little too late
you found an escape
and now you want to close the gap.

Should have thought about that
before
should have listened closer
to what I had said
while we laid down in bed.

Should have prayed for a solution
could have closed the door of confusion
but it was familiar
sometimes chaos makes one comfortable.

It was too easy to get me
even easier to keep me
but you didn't know how
couldn't figure out the man
didn't have any plan.

So self-pity, hate, cry
moan, then wipe your tears
start all over with someone else
and when you come to a detour
find a way out
parade her around
smile and look down.

You don't need me.


Nicholl McGuire

I Saw A Vision of Him Once

I am in love!
The sound of his voice
brought peace to my mind.
I saw a vision of him once.

Light skin
dark hair
dark eyes
young
tall
sweet
kind
and of course all mine!

So happy about life I am
he was an added benefit
to my already blessed life.

I no longer felt the need to open doors
to men when I felt burdened.
No longer did I need a wind
beneath my wings because I found that in Jesus!

I could finally celebrate being in love
know that I would be okay
for the rest of my life!

The pillow I laid my head down
permanent
my address permanent
my name permanent
my dedication to the relationship steadfast!

I didn't have to search along the streets
wonder if he or him or that one was my future man
didn't have to hope anymore
didn't have to long for what was in store!

Because I knew
I knew...
before he came
I knew...
he didn't control my destiny
he didn't take what wasn't his from me
he didn't cheat on me
he didn't abuse me
he didn't lie to me.
His words were true.
He is an honest man.

What great joy
in knowing that I don't have to stay
up late at night hurting inside
because he won't touch me.

What peace I have
in knowing that he can talk to any woman
and I don't have to worry
he would cheat on me.

What happiness I have found
in knowing that he has not only embraced me
but accepted the extensions of me.

I am grateful
I am overjoyed
I am hopeful
of a man I never knew
a man I never met
a man whose coming...


Nicholl McGuire

Temporal Feelings for a Temporal Relationship

Like a raging inferno the heat
centered itself upon my frigid heart.

An unseen fire burned my abusive past, hidden anger, and bitter emotions.
I was instantly hypnotized, engulfed by his beauty.

He demolished my memories of the one before him -- instantly!

My thoughts crowded out by his presence.
My body shook for his touch.
My mind envisioned our future.

I could see nothing to the left or right of me
only the angel that stood five feet in front of me.
A bright light welcomed me, said "come quickly for it won't be long..."
I couldn't move forward my feet plastered to the floor.

I cried, struggled, prayed if only I could meet him halfway!
As I moved in his direction,
fear began to strangle me
I fought its grasp
walked toward the one, my one!

His light beckoned me, but I could not go on,
for what would happen next startled me!
Behind him stood a dark shadow half man half beast!

A dark angel
created to take my life!
What happened to the rush of emotions that uplifted me, blinded me?
They were no more!

His light a mirage of an imagination run wild.
I saw what I wanted to see at first glance...
what I thought was love at first sight.

How many victims had this beast claimed before me?
Images of wounded, naked women, peeked from behind his shadow
tears streaming from blackened eyes!
They fought to be seen from behind his dark shadow.
A black cloak covered them, they disappeared behind the veil.

He retreated when I resisted.
Spoke scriptures to him of God's love.
How could a dark angel that brightened my life for but a moment?
As quick as I fell in love with him, I hated him.
A wolf in sheeps clothing.

I vowed I would warn others.
He promised he would return.

Temporal feelings for a temporal relationship.

Written by Nicholl McGuire, for other writings by this author visit, www.associatedcontent.com/nichollmcguire
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