You're Not Crazy, He's Just Wrong for You

Unclean hands,

he calls them clean.

That’s what he does,

inner spirit, mean.

Wrong about issues,

says he’s right.

Hold things against you,

all night.

Starts trouble with his lies,

claims he tells the truth.

Ignores your cries.

You say up,

he says down.

There he goes with his frown!

Show him a good time and a few good things,

he looks for the bad in the lyrics that he sings.

Passive, aggressive.

Seeks ways to pay you back,

puffs himself up,

came from lack.

Doesn’t listen to sound advice,

wisdom he ignores;

rather play a head game of dice.

What’s up with this man?

Rarely smiles.

Been walking with him for miles.

Convinces self,

“I’m good.”

Doesn’t want anyone telling him, “You should…”

A distorted view on who he really is.

Love like his, loses its fizz.

Tried communicating,

But so suffocating!

Feelings used against me,

Pain runs like the sea.

So I went to God…

witnesses saw the truth,

pointed out lies,

relationship dies.

Now he doesn’t speak,

tries to appear meek.

No one’s friend

when in sin.

Don’t have the patience

to start again.

Can’t counsel anymore,

asking God to restore

 

a broken heart once more.

 

 

Nicholl McGuire

Love What, Love Who!?

Poem dedicated to any reader who has been asked by a mate to do things you really didn't want to do.

Love you, love what?

If I agree to this,
then who might I be?

Say what, say who?
What about you?

I have to think about this.
Don't know if I can put up with this.

Not happy with that,
compromise what!?  For a few...

Gifts, kisses?  But, that's right holiday misses!
All is forgotten, but not necessarily.

Somehow equated love with what you do--
had a feeling things would go like this!

Routines, tasks, life challenges.
Death, mayhem, crying, misunderstandings.

Love you, love what, love who!?

A representation of a mother, a father
with issues--oh yes, lots of issues!
Relatives here, there and everywhere!
Past friends, co-workers, fans...
so many want access to you!

I am to love the you, the who, within.
But who are you really?

So many guards, protection all around
a torn heart, a childhood past, and addictions that seem to last and last!

Eyes look through me.
I think your asking too much!

Don't know the who, the what, the where, the why
and how might I go about this?

Expecting me to be open to what you do.
Find myself asking,
"Love what, love who?"

Nicholl McGuire

Lost Me

When love walked in,
Me walked out.

Focused on him.
The way he looked, dressed, walked, smiled...
it was all about him.

When he called.
Available.
When he came by.
Dropped everything.
When he wanted something.
Gave it to him.

Got angry one day.
Looked in the mirror.
Didn't recognize the eyes that looked back at Me.

Pregnant Me,
so far gone!

Between child and man,
no time for Me.

My identity stolen.
Left it out to be snatched away.

Their worlds, became my world.
Their time, became mine.

Lost myself in them.

Who was I?

Still bold, brash, loving, kind, sweet...
it was hard to tell.

I felt weak.

Mother, wife
was all that came to mind.

Forgot about what I liked to do.
Painting, singing, talking, sightseeing.

So I stole back Me.
When loved walked in, I didn't walk
this time.

Stuck with my plan.
This was my life,
and I was still Me.


Nicholl McGuire is the author of Spiritual Poems by Nicholl

Love for Those Who Don't Love Me

Even if I fail to say, "I love you"
and even if I don't agree with everything you say or do
just know I still got love for you.

Don't need to live with you, call you everyday, or expect you to do something for me.
Still got love anyway.
A past created the foundation for emotions I have today.
A past awoke something in me that lives in me.
An unexplainable compassion, appreciation, and thoughtfulness.

Rarely do I see such emotions returned.
A half-hearted smile, a short response, and a "I got to go."

Oh yes!  Still got love for those who don't love me,
no time to get to know me,
not really interested in my offspring and the joy that they can bring.

"Give me" is in season.
Let the phone ring, the well-wishes, and the niceties begin.
But once good times pass,
it's back to not knowing me.

Is there a mirror that shows the ugly that men do and women talk about?
Would they be able to see themselves?
For I knew someone once who hugged hateful hearts.
Showed love to people who didn't deserve her.
She found a resting place, sooner rather than later.

Love for those who don't love me such a noble feat.
Give praise to a God who loves us unconditionally.
Remember what once was and learn from it.

So I smile, go along with the program,
while deep inside I know,
they love me not.

Nicholl McGuire

In The Middle of the Road

Feel good?
Lie.
Straighten up a tie.
Pretend that I didn't ask, "Why?"
Often keeping things to yourself.
Busy like an elf.

Thought I had something good when I looked at you.
But took in your perspective, your view.
You didn't like me much.
But you used me as a crutch!
Hobbled along in this relationship.
Ignored my each and every tip.

See I know what this is really about.
You claim I like to make trouble and shout.
But you run, don't like no one messing with your fun.

What are we going to do?
Our years remaining are few.

Got bigger fish to fry!
Got to get pass yesteryears's lie.

You see the more I do, I do, I do...
it seems the more you don't want to change your view, your view, your view.
So sick and tired of you!

Found a way to make peace before I cracked,
got over the things that I had lacked.
There is a new friend in my town.
Don't need him to act like a clown.

Found a friend in what some call Jesus--
hope he can mediate between us.

Nicholl McGuire is the author of Spiritual Poems by Nicholl

Poetry in Motion Films: spiritual cinema

Sometimes I think about different ways to share poetry.  I came across the following site.

Poetry in Motion Films: spiritual cinema

I couldn't help but think about so many movies that already exist that are like Christian tracts, they are designed to spread a message.  However, unlike spiritual messages to encourage, rebuke, etc.  so often movies are nothing more than propaganda tools, mind-programming creations, and unfortunately negative energy contributors to mankind.  How we have fallen so far and stooped so low when it comes to simply making free time to just be! Far too many, use what little free time they do have to busy themselves some more with someone else's lifestyle, issue, morbid thinking, and other useless things--for what?

Just thinking...

Have a good day!

Photo taken by Nicholl McGuire - nichollmcguire.blogspot.com

Nicholl is the author of Spiritual Poems by Nicholl on Blurb.

Laboring to Love an Abusive Mate - My Personal Experience - YouTube

Laboring to Love an Abusive Mate - My Personal Experience - YouTube

THE BOOK: Laboring to Love Myself by Nicholl McGuire - YouTube

Laboring to Love Myself by Nicholl McGuire - YouTube

WEDDING POEMS

In need of a wedding poem?  Not that long ago, a relative was planning a wedding and needed a poem for her program.  I had quite a few I already wrote and luckily she found one that she liked.  So I thought maybe there is someone seeking a good poem for their perfect day too.  I recently came across this site:

WEDDING POEMS

PABLO NERUDA - Love - StumbleUpon

This poem takes me back to a time when things were so simple when it came to falling in love with someone.  A perfect muse to encourage the poet inside you!

PABLO NERUDA - Love - StumbleUpon