I Thought I Was In Love

I thought I was in love,
I thought I had it all.
But now I realize,
I was Humpty who had a great fall!

I needed a friend who had a few ends,
but all he had really was many great sins!
Told me he was true,
left me feelin' blue.

I don't desire him now like I desired him then,
because my heart is cold and dented like tin.
Too many hits from life --
always fighting strife.

I don't tell my story
for pity or glory.
Just don't want my girls to end up on Maury!
I know what it feels like to be lonely in bed
popping pills for the drama inside your head!

I am not lonely nor am I l blessed
more often than not I feel stressed!
Being pulled from place to place.
Having to look at yet another man's face!

Looking for freedom on a street called, "Where?"
Carrying a heavy, large heart with a tear.

Yeah I thought I was in love
thought I had it all,
but now I realize I was Humpty
who had a great fall!

Nicholl McGuire http://www.twitter.com/poemsbynicholl