I'm Afraid

My heart is sinking
gradually
into the pit
of my stomach
as my walls
surround
and suffocate it.

My outside showing
my inside
I ache
everyday
and I'm afraid.

Poor me, I ignore the feelings,
the visions, the thoughts.

I love today
because I am away from what some
call home.
I hate tomorrow
because he'll be there.

I shouldn't stay
I know...
but I don't know.

He cries with no tears
I cry with many tears
and each time it just
gets worse.

And I thought it
would become easier
and easier to leave,
but it hasn't.

Nicholl McGuire is the author of Laboring to Love an Abusive Mate, Amazon.com
http://laboringtoloveanabusivemate.blogspot.com