What is that emotion that keeps me writing
about boys, boys, boys...
they look at me
talk to me
see me
but not daddy.
Boys, boys, boys
replaced my toys...
oh how I loved writing about boys!
A description here and one there,
a stare, a glare, and wish to take a dare.
Couldn't think of nothing more,
much free time was spent behind a closed door.
Stayed out the way of grown ups,
because they wanted children to shut up.
Boys, boys, boys
they were like my toys...
search for them, lust them,
a light within me slowly went dim.
From 11 to 21, it was supposed to be innocent and fun,
but met the kind of boys that didn't shine like the sun.
Burdens upon me weighed like a ton.
I wanted to be done...
lusting after boys.
I wished for days again just playing with my toys.
Nicholl McGuire
Leggings
Black tight pants.
Flesh crawl like ants.
Attraction,
create dissatisfaction.
A temporary fix
a design encouraged
body shapes look like a six,
originally meant for the size six and less,
by yet another creator who respects the Six.
Too small, to fit it all.
Women buy two, three or more
walk around at the mall.
Unflattering, inappropriate
at the workplace,
elders frown--a disgrace!
Try not to look,
behinds uncovered...
temptation
a marriage already in trouble,
another issue among the rubble.
Staring, he doesn't care, his girl is standing right there!
Match with heels, those shoes kill
what could have been...
another tight, black deadly sin.
Harmless not,
another couple just fought.
Unhappy with what they got.
Leggings
tears shedding.
Nicholl McGuire
Flesh crawl like ants.
Attraction,
create dissatisfaction.
A temporary fix
a design encouraged
body shapes look like a six,
originally meant for the size six and less,
by yet another creator who respects the Six.
Too small, to fit it all.
Women buy two, three or more
walk around at the mall.
Unflattering, inappropriate
at the workplace,
elders frown--a disgrace!
Try not to look,
behinds uncovered...
temptation
a marriage already in trouble,
another issue among the rubble.
Staring, he doesn't care, his girl is standing right there!
Match with heels, those shoes kill
what could have been...
another tight, black deadly sin.
Harmless not,
another couple just fought.
Unhappy with what they got.
Leggings
tears shedding.
Nicholl McGuire
Under the Sheets
Always so nice
he rolled women like dice.
A perfect gentleman,
but often in sin.
Really thought he was smart,
yet he couldn't even smell his own fart.
He lied much, attempted to play mind games
but he usually ends up feeling ashamed.
The devil's playground is not for sensitive types.
And definitely not for those who like to believe the hype.
Between two worlds of dark and light,
gradually the so-called believer is losing his spiritual insight.
Not focused on what God is doing with others,
he listens to deceitful brothers and lies to single mothers.
Women only good for being under the sheets,
slip and slide...he brags about his big meat.
The best cut of all, tender and raw,
but he doesn't tell them he is breaking the law.
A disease that has taken over his smelly body,
he keeps quiet doesn't want to scare away a hottie.
When truth shows up, the sick man doesn't know what to do,
he worries sometimes that his surprised lovers might sue.
Under the sheets is where he was abused and used,
he leaves his lovers in pain and confused.
Nicholl McGuire
he rolled women like dice.
A perfect gentleman,
but often in sin.
Really thought he was smart,
yet he couldn't even smell his own fart.
He lied much, attempted to play mind games
but he usually ends up feeling ashamed.
The devil's playground is not for sensitive types.
And definitely not for those who like to believe the hype.
Between two worlds of dark and light,
gradually the so-called believer is losing his spiritual insight.
Not focused on what God is doing with others,
he listens to deceitful brothers and lies to single mothers.
Women only good for being under the sheets,
slip and slide...he brags about his big meat.
The best cut of all, tender and raw,
but he doesn't tell them he is breaking the law.
A disease that has taken over his smelly body,
he keeps quiet doesn't want to scare away a hottie.
When truth shows up, the sick man doesn't know what to do,
he worries sometimes that his surprised lovers might sue.
Under the sheets is where he was abused and used,
he leaves his lovers in pain and confused.
Nicholl McGuire
Your Experience
Behind closed doors
between sheets
excitement
anticipation
release.
The day goes on
new day,
new thoughts
another memory.
What did she think?
What more does he want?
Impact?
Something special?
Different.
Sex.
Your own personal satisfaction.
Your own personal perspective.
A man will be a man.
A woman will be a woman.
Nicholl McGuire
between sheets
excitement
anticipation
release.
The day goes on
new day,
new thoughts
another memory.
What did she think?
What more does he want?
Impact?
Something special?
Different.
Sex.
Your own personal satisfaction.
Your own personal perspective.
A man will be a man.
A woman will be a woman.
Nicholl McGuire
The Truth 1998-2005
Allergic to the truth
honesty, not.
Got caught.
Distraught.
Sought someone else
to fall for the lies
personal faith,
he likes to compromise.
He thinks no one is watching,
listening...
thinks he is too clever, a good catch
likes to play with people instructs them to go "Fetch."
Should have saw this one coming long ago,
he was a worker for Satan, a common foe.
Like the rest, like the rest, always show their best...
Used God to get in doors, to make friends,
while temporarily covering disgusting sins.
Should have saw the other one coming long ago,
when he looked at me with tears in my eyes and
said, "So?" and "What about So and So?"
Heartless, cold, emotionally twisted...
kissed it...the walking dead man
that mouthed, "There you go, starting your sh*t!"
The truth, a bitter pill...
but how do those lies feel?
On a phone, a computer, out of a mouth,
on a paper, in bed after sex.
The truth.
Nicholl McGuire
honesty, not.
Got caught.
Distraught.
Sought someone else
to fall for the lies
personal faith,
he likes to compromise.
He thinks no one is watching,
listening...
thinks he is too clever, a good catch
likes to play with people instructs them to go "Fetch."
Should have saw this one coming long ago,
he was a worker for Satan, a common foe.
Like the rest, like the rest, always show their best...
Used God to get in doors, to make friends,
while temporarily covering disgusting sins.
Should have saw the other one coming long ago,
when he looked at me with tears in my eyes and
said, "So?" and "What about So and So?"
Heartless, cold, emotionally twisted...
kissed it...the walking dead man
that mouthed, "There you go, starting your sh*t!"
The truth, a bitter pill...
but how do those lies feel?
On a phone, a computer, out of a mouth,
on a paper, in bed after sex.
The truth.
Nicholl McGuire
Romantic Regret
Can't tell you what I'm thinkin'
'cause if I do my stomach will start sinkin.'
Dreams, hopes and things
wore a few too many rings.
Past memories they bring
wounds, they start to sting.
My inspirational Spirit sings.
Wish I could tell you what I'm thinkin'
but I know me, I might start swingin'
A fight within still lives,
I wonder, "What gives?"
How much does one have to put up,
to receive a badge that reads, "This one's tough!"
So I hold out for my next vision,
before I make yet another bad decision.
Nicholl McGuire
'cause if I do my stomach will start sinkin.'
Dreams, hopes and thingswore a few too many rings.
Past memories they bring
wounds, they start to sting.
My inspirational Spirit sings.
Wish I could tell you what I'm thinkin'
but I know me, I might start swingin'
A fight within still lives,
I wonder, "What gives?"
How much does one have to put up,
to receive a badge that reads, "This one's tough!"
So I hold out for my next vision,
before I make yet another bad decision.
Nicholl McGuire
Unleashed
Never figured it out
didn't shout it out
wasn't going to go back
to my heart in my hands
waiting for someone to
take it
twist it
shake it
mix it
and serve it back to me
learned the lesson
stopped confessin
about what I could have
should have
would have
done,
so DONE!
My heart beats
flutters
tightens
warns me
it won't be long
heard the prophecy
in God's song
In the meantime...
I write
even when I'm uptight
even when it's night
even in the dark with little light
I write--
don't claim to be right
just know how to preach my insight.
Unleashed the pain within
the past sin
the stuff evil said I wasn't supposed to say...
told to be quiet, sit and pray.
Nope Satan, not today.
Unleashed!
Unleashed!
Let truth shine
come from behind
no self-pity or guilt
no pride holding me on stilts--
saw too many knocked down
tears still on faces while they lay on the ground.
Nicholl McGuire
didn't shout it out
wasn't going to go back
to my heart in my hands
waiting for someone to
take it
twist it
shake it
mix it
and serve it back to me
learned the lesson
stopped confessin
about what I could have
should have
would have
done,
so DONE!
My heart beats
flutters
tightens
warns me
it won't be long
heard the prophecy
in God's song
In the meantime...
I write
even when I'm uptight
even when it's night
even in the dark with little light
I write--
don't claim to be right
just know how to preach my insight.
Unleashed the pain within
the past sin
the stuff evil said I wasn't supposed to say...
told to be quiet, sit and pray.
Nope Satan, not today.
Unleashed!
Unleashed!
Let truth shine
come from behind
no self-pity or guilt
no pride holding me on stilts--
saw too many knocked down
tears still on faces while they lay on the ground.
Nicholl McGuire
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